Darnel and wheat... drinking clear fluids...and the Sea of Paradox

A flurry of phone calls back and forth, getting my LW&T updated FAST thanks to my amazing lawyer and drinking the PICO-SALAX (Blue - two sachets) to cleanse my system. So, last night I wandered around Metro looking fr clear fluids to drink, remembering my BIG mistake when I had my colonscopy a few years ago --I didn't mix it with anything. It was absolutely awful and I got violently sick trying to drink it all in the allotted time.
This is like being at a spa comparitively speaking so I chose clear fluids I'd never tried before. So that was fun.  I started with water, organic apple juice (500ml), Vitamin water with stevia (not doing that again) 591 ml, mom's brodo (350ml) and maybe in a few minutes two cups camomile with lemon. Then there's white cranberry juice (who knew?) and white grape juice. And a nap (didn't happen) And laundry. And start again....

But I want to share some lines here so that I don't lose the thoughts.  From Kelley, who wrote last night:

I don't have a poem or a quote, but I'll leave you with what I've been chewing on lately.  I've just been struck by how interwoven the darnel and wheat are, the now and the not yet, virtue and vice, mortal and immortal.  The true, the good, and the beautiful seem bound to truck with what is false, bad, and ugly.  Somehow, there is gift woven into everything we receive, since it is the Giver who allows us to receive it.

I don't pretend to understand this, but I certainly observe and experience it.



This is so much to chew on. I absolutely love knowing what darnel and wheat are and those metaphors being so familiar to me. It brought back visions of Israel, the countryside, seed on fallow ground, seed falling on rich soil..It occurred to me that we skate often unknowingly on the fine line between yin and yang, afraid to fall into either...It  made me realize we spend our lives floating on the Sea of Paradox Everything is true and not true at the same time. Yin and Yang. Black and White. Face to face.


And then Susie sent some marvelous poems which beg to be shared. Here's just one:

God Says Yes To Me

Kaylin Haught

I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it even okay if I don't paragraph
my letters
Sweetcakes God said
who knows where she picked that up
what I'm telling you is
Yes Yes Yes

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Isn't that just the best!  And in between all this, all this...the phone rang one more time. Marie from Sunnybrook with the time for my surgery. You need to be at the hospital at 6 am. Your surgery will be at 7:45. You're the first one up.

YES! YES! YES!