Fear of food ..and flying

Monday was a tough day for the most part because most of it was obsessed with wanting to have that crucial (yes Linda, is is!!!) first BM. The great unplugging! Which is where I became terrified of anything that went into my mouth lest it hamper or contract the flow of movement as it were. Plus I haven't got the rhythm of what to take when oxycondone (thank you Jesus) probably IS the best thing since sliced bread.. Actually much better than sb.. For pain then you need to take the "red pills" the stool softener and the Sennokot ( Rowena described them as the scrubbers) to counteract the oxy. My list from Sunnybrook had a whole chart of if this doesn't work try this with that and if that doesn't work try more of this with some of that and the this other think. I was down to Milk of Magnesia by 6 pm. Mom wasgood enough to go and get me some . After that were suppositories, a fleet enema and, last resort go to the hospital where they would have done what exactly? Plus all this compromised by about 10 inches of etches on the front of your backside. You do not want to force an issues, believe you me. But hallelujah, just before supper , my prayers were answered. I'm still afraid of food though and even though my nurse Althea said "no food restrictions" I've decded to have small portions of things, no coffee for now , no grapes (gas!)no radicchio(the vinegar) nothing that I think soupy set me in any way. And, of douse, no alcohol .

Now to the flying part. From my bed, I look out my window all day and night long I see jet planes flying up. At night, they Re bright lights silently flying heavenward. These are the prayers that have been launched on my behalf and taken flight. Every day I have felt their power. Yesterdays mail brought margie's card with the mem
Memorare...remember o most gracious Virgin Mary that never was it known that anyone who FLED to thy protection, implored thy help, and sought thy intercession was left unaided.
Amen to that .
And then my wonderful Sr Agnes Theresa (aka Sr Toni Sheehan) phoned to let me know she was prayin for me every day.. Did I mention she's 87 and still drivesherself. She's a marvel , a book really ,.. Anyway she said "this is what you do Lauretta , you take in a breath like this..and she demonstrates and you breath "Yaaaah". And you hold I and then you let it go anthe "Weeeh". And you see you've breathe " Yahweh", the name of god..and that will be a prayer and it will comfort you. " she was, of course, absolutely right. Like her, it was advice was simple, brilliant and true.